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Perhaps i’m not cut out for studying; i’ve the sudden urge to blog again. Besides the new year post, i haven had this feeling ever since A’s ended. its really strange how i never felt this way during the long break where i was working and neither did i feel this way during sem1. Guess i’m just tired of fighting; fighting my way up everytime, whether is it O’s or A’s or even little tests that aren’t significant at all. But now, i’m fighting with the creme de la creme.

Prof Chua is right, its not fair to have bell curves because the competition is just too stiff. Sometimes, i feel so helpless. Long gone are the days where we can just stroll over to the staff room and call Ms Quek/Mdm Ng/Mrs Chai or anyone else for help.

I’m too emotional, i care too much, and i expect too much from myself. i couldn’t sleep last night, went to bed at around 1am and tossed around for quite some time. had nightmare after nightmare and i woke up panicking.

I’m stuck at Macro notes. Sometimes, i find it so fascinating that people can come up with these theories about how people decide to consume/save and how the economy as a whole operates. other times, I’m so fed up with all the terms and assumptions. We should just follow the Efficient Market Hypothesis: everything is dynamic, so there is no use in predicting anything. HA! and then the whole econs dept will collaspe.

Haha, my blog entries all mostly just me whining and lamenting. Even i find it boring when i skim thru some of my past entries. i’m not someone who can create interesting posts, i only blog when i need to complain.

okie, i feel better already. Shall get back to my notes. macro midterm results back next fri. fingers crossed!

Hello everyone, Xin Nian Kuai Le! (cant type chinese on my lappie)

haha its been over a year since i last blogged.. was talking abit with sarah the other day..i’m just not the kind who can blog on a regular basis unless there is the urge to.. like before the A’s where i was really stressed ..

anw, i’m here today cos i’ve a sudden urge to write down all my thoughts. so many things happened that i felt like putting it all somewhere cos i really wanna remember this particular CNY..

before going back msia, i already expected that the mood would not be as great cos less relatives are going back .. all i looked forward to was meeting all the other relatives and sitting down for meals and my grandparents and the festive lively mood ..

Chu xi: left sg on wed afternoon.. skipped macro lectue which was from 2-4pm .. lucky not too much jam .. had first round reunion dinner at wai po’s place then went back to po po’s house .. the usual (but less lively & noisy) countdown .. and then my sis, yen and i played dai di til around 4 .. haha so many hours and yet my sis and i only managed to earn RM29.50 from yen combined ..

Chu yi: woke around 9 and then went to wai po house and tai ma house to bai nian.. went back to po po house for kangxi lai le/wo cai wo cai wo cai cai cai which all the below 25 ppl would crowd to watch in the 2^nd room .. we always lu4 lu4 xu4 xu4 do that during the 4.5 days in between other stuff .. watched Alvin and the chipmunks too .. goddad left around 9pm .. we tried really hard to make him stay longer but he said he wanted go back to eyesmate.. so we hid his car keys while he was packing .. suddenly we saw from the window that his car was moving!! Haha we took the wrong keys!! Later around 11 plus, yilin, sis and i decided to have steamboat by ourselves! Haha .. when ¾ of everyone was asleep! Waited for the food to digest abit before sleeping at 2 plus .. that night was the best sleep we had cos no yy and no zhong qi to make noise early in the morning .. and yilin and i had a whole room to ourselves..

Chu er: woke around 9 (again) and went to 2 old kampong areas to see lao da gu1, lao dua gu2, lao li(zee? – hokkien meaning 2^nd but somehow it became li over the years, no idea why) gu2, lao si yi etc etc etc with po po, gong gong, da gu, sis,  mum and dad .. grandparents were really happy cos they haven’t seen all these distant relatives for years .. it was really cool cos within the kampongs, they live next to one another .. then went to wai po house again .. er yi and xiao yi were there ald .. played the kids’ fav da feng chui .. had shen xian can (as described by yen – who followed us there for our usual chu er meal since all the aunts will be back) crab by san yi, yu sheng, thai-styled abalone salad by xiao gu2, the usual steamboat, then secret recipe oreo cheesecake! Mmmm! But before the dinner commenced, we waited for wai gong to come back cos he went out for mah-jong.. all 25 plus of us went downstairs and stood in 2 lines at either side .. then when he opened the door! We clapped and sang “gong xi gong xi gong xi ni ah!” with the kids banging on pots and pans for sound effects haha .. Then after dinner, we went back to po po house .. er gu was back already and everyone was asking da gu to stay cos she bought bus tickets for the next morning at 745 .. haha then while no one was looking (which was kinda hard in a small house cramped with so many ppl), yilin and i sneaked into da gu’s room and stole her tickets! Then dunno how come she went to check her tickets about an hour later and found it missing! She immediately suspected that someone stole her tickets .. but everyone just denied (by now, alot of ppl knew we had taken it) .. then er gu instructed us to just hold on to it and dun say anything .. later into the night, we passed it to er gu and there were a few times she almost let the cat out of the bag!

Da gu: ah mei, give it back lah, (da gu zhang) need to work on Sunday

Er gu: ok then i give him one ticket, then u stay?

Da gu: so u have it lah!

Er gu: (really calmly) no .. i’ll go get it from the kids ..

Hahahah! Lawyer jiu shi lawyer!

Finally da gu decided to just go sleep cos she was sure that whoever took it would return her .. some time later, er gu relented and left it on da gu’s table before she herself went to sleep .. we (me, sis, yilin, yen, kangwei, jane) didn give up .. we decided to write her a note so that she would see it in the morning and not go .. we searched around and could find a big enough piece of paper! So we bought a 50cent 8 or 10 page notebook from gong gong.. then might as well use the whole book !! haha .. we wrote what we initially intended to write on a piece of paper on the first page of that book .. qu liu you ni jue ding (thought of by yilin), qin qing dui ni zhong yao ma? (thought of by me!) then we each wrote her stuff on separate pages to fill up the whole book .. er bo took our marker and stamped his thumbprint! Haha .. it was really a very heartwarming experience and we worked til around 4 plus .. then we were thinking of cooking breakfast for her but end up decided not to cos didn wan po po to wake since she’s a light sleeper and sleeping in the room near to the kitchen.. so then we were all so exhausted that we slept and hoped for the best .. as heard from er gu, da gu woke up and saw the book we placed on a chair outside her room ( we wanted to put it on the table next to her tickets but the door creaked very loudly when we tried to open it so we didn) then she cried when she read the book and was really undecided whether she  should leave .. and then er gu, our mastermind/kao shan persuaded her to leave .. traitor! Da gu then tried to wake kang wei to send her to the bus terminal and even squeezed his nose tight so he couldn breathe .. but kang wei bravely tolerated and pretended to sleep .. end up the traitor sent da gu to the terminal ..

Chu san: woke around 9 (again) by yy and zhong qi cos we slept in the living room.. we escaped to 2^nd room to sleep and they still kept disturbing us! Rah! Went to er yi’s house for lunch with everyone there .. then went back to po po house in the late afternoon while the kids went back to wai po house for nap time .. watched haunted mansion with sis, yen, zhong ning, zhong qi, yy.. then we went to wai po house for dinner .. another very heartwarming meal with nice food to complement .. haha .. many rounds of yum seng .. sons-in-law with wai gong, daughters with wai po (including me as xiao xiao nv er), then all the grandchildren with wai po, wai gong (with me now as da da shun) and then me and sis and mum and wai po .. then xiao yi and wai po plus some of the kids went to po po’s house with us to bai nian .. talked til 11 plus then they went back .. at first we decided to sleep, but dunno who suggested playing princess dai di (thats wad i call it, its otherwise more commonly known as as***** dai di – i dun like that name) played with sis, yilin, yen and kangwei .. with the couch unknowingly becoming the throne! Haha .. played til 4 plus and somehow along the way, we wanted to cook breakfast for everyone, with a special one for po po, but that again would wake po po, so suggested buying, so we somehow went to sleep and wanted to wake at 5 .. haha .. of cos no one did! Even with 2 alarms!

Chu si: woke around 9 (somehow thats always the time that the 2 kids would decide to bother us in the living room) and we escaped (again!) to the 2^nd room.. got up at around 11 for more princess dai di .. the day passed ultimately quickly! We played the game til around 6 plus where we had dinner and then packed to leave .. we played the game for a whole night and day! Haha .. then somehow someone suggested leaving together .. er bo and family, my family and san gu and family! So cool! Haha 3 camrys all drving together! But sadly, that was the end .. alot of thoughts ran through my mind on the way back .. po po’s visibly aging alot.. memory losses and getting physically weaker .. i took it for granted that everyone would be like tai ma .. and she still have to take care of tai ma and gong gong during normal days which is really too strenuous for her but she never did complain .. she would always let them eat first and she would eat their leftovers .. on chu san nite, mum, er gu, san gu and most of the children from that generation tried to persuade gong gong to ask his siblings to take care of tai ma cos its really too taxing for po po le.. but his pride proved it difficult for him .. til now, still dunno the verdict .. hope everything goes well ..

cant believe 4.5 days passed so quickly .. its back to work! Must study hard .. loads of pressure from older generations and my own cousins as well.. its gonna be a difficult sem.. no more breaks from now on! (except bai nians and quick v-day celeb!)

STUDY STUDY STUDY!      

whee !! enjoyed my 18 bday very very much =) thanks all !!

haha .. me’ve got item 1 and 5 on the list le .. big shock .. but pleasant surprise haha .. whee !!

lazy to blog abt the bday events .. rah! ..

happie birthday to me =)

exams are finally over .. dunno wad to say .. dun feel like saying either haha .. been quite xin shen bu ning ever since exams ended .. thank god for retail therapy ! haha .. wells 8 more days to 18 !! haha feel so old suddenly ! (qf dun kill me haha ) been therapy-ing alot lately but if anyone got kind heart wanna give me present then here are some ideas !! haha .. no lah .. this is to benefit close frens who would give me pressie anyway but dunno wad to get .. so me is not that thick-skinned okie !! rah !! anw few ppl read this blog ( i think) so shld be alrite haha ..

1) http://www.huabags.com  ( spring collection ) pink romance
$69 !! rah ! so ex thats why i’ve been eyeing for so long and never buy !! the price cos of the lace and materials bah .. i like the clasp too ! so victorian !! haha

2) whee !! qing dynasty pen di xie !! this example not that nice lah haha the ones u see on tv very very nice !! haven never been able to find this anywhere .. sigh .. i wans i wans !!

3) pink jeans at esprit ! haha me actually will wear jeans de hor .. if not wrong .. its $119 .. rah !!

4) i need new pink heels !! my old pink heels very old le .. my principle is life is to have at the very very least .. one pink heels and one white heels !! haha .. preferred to be princessy classy .. not the cutesy kind haha ..

5) white handbag .. preferred to be princessy classy not too big not too small .. (some description !! haha ) small enough to put water bottle umbrella wallet and handphone can le..

6) forever 21 long flowly brown trenchcoat !!around $100 .. ask lunny huahua or minny !! haha ..

rah !! all so ex ! haha .. cos if cheaper then i will buy oredi .. wun wait til now .. haha .. anw hor .. anything also can lah .. jus no wan soft toys and impratical things ..wan stuff that i can wear/ hang on myself !! haha i’m saying as if ppl are rushing to buy me present like dat .. haha .. crazy me ! rah !!

wheeheheh !! we is going hk from 9th to 13th dec .. ngor hai leng loi !! hehehehe .. wans to do the following there !
1) shopping !
2) find the wishing tree often seen on hk serials ( esp zhen qing ) and make a wish ! haha
3) eat nice food ! roasted pigeon ?? as seen in hk serials .. haha
4) see xmas deco and lightings !!
5) sight see of cos !! some nice historic places ( which i have no idea wad haha !) but me is love historic places !! esp castles haha ..
6) jian xing for lunny ..
7) speak canto !! haha ..

life’s been so hectic ! rah !

taking a ultra super short break from econs mcq .. been doing it for the whole day oredi .. very very sian .. cant believe all the stupid mistakes i made in the past .. but at least i know how to do at least 90% of them now .. life’s jus the same .. the present is more impt .. who cares abt how many As u got for O levels or PSLE .. THIS IS THE ULTIMATE HURDLE .. and i feel as if i have been running all my hurdles rather well ( for my own expectations ) til now .. i’m so exhausted .. all the injuries and pain and aches and lethargy .. i jus dun haf the will anymore ..

I WANNA WHINE ! I WANNA CRY ! yet i dun wan u to worry .. i will hold back .. i will perservere .. i haf to .. i cant break down again anymore .. suddenly .. i feel so old .. A’ levels used to be something as far as the retirement age jus months and years ago .. yet .. i’m sitting for it in less than a week .. save me god .. i need a miracle ..

rite .. enough of the tears .. realli happie to have gotten to know ual these 2 years .. every happie moment .. sad moment .. annoying moment .. funny moment .. i will keep them always .. =) love u guys VERY MUCH !! also .. wanna say sorry for all the times i nagged !! realli hope ual had 2 fulfilling years and hope that i was able to help in whichever way i could along the way .. must study hard now .. shall stop this before i start tearing again ..

in alphabetical (class list) order !

1) Sarah - my treasurer and lakemate .. always finishing her tuts very early and usually with a cheerful smile on her face (which she claims is fat .. pls lah .. my face is fatter! ) she bullies me on our way home everyday .. and absolutely cannot stand my princessy behaviour ! haha

2) Joyce - as her name suggests, she’s joyful ! haha .. used to have seriously weird thoughts about me and lunny ..now even more weird thoughts about you-know-who .. haha !!

3) Jieying - Xiao mei mei aka gina !! loves jap anime and green very much .. always very quiet during lessons .. but after lessons arh .. then will show her very kiddish side !! haha .. oh wait .. she has no other side !!

4) Mei Jie - GP rep !! pls ans ur phone lah .. sigh .. ms tang tired of calling u then she always call me … haha .. she’s very thin but unfortunately ppl call her meaty mei jie !! haha ..

5) Qin fang - huang jie !! LQF !! linear interpolation !! strawberry shortcake !! ultimately .. ur still my peanut !! nuts family will rock on forever and ever !! hehehe !! we love to give act cute poses everywhere and anywhere .. and we’ll always insist the we’re naturally cute !! good photographer who can play pipa as well ! next time shall engage u to take my wedding photos !! (that is .. if i can choose between all the guys -which is alot- who wan me lah haha )

6) Yuqin - tall and thin girl who says she’s fat !! coming to aj was prob her best decision ever !! hahah .. cos someone got mel mel rite .. imycbs !! hahah .. she knows a lot of gossip too haha ..

7) Nafisah - our funky and outspoken councillor !! invited us to her hse during hari raya last year !! and went to ur hse again before national day to make my dress !! haha .. pls remind ur bro that i’m sane okie !! haha

Princess - real live princess with royal blood .. pretty and cute and all the other good adjectives in the world .. heheh .. me lah !! whee !! too emotional though ..

9) Diana - mushroom !! she thinks she’s very dreamy .. but oh she is so wrong !! ahha .. kaez lah .. she’s cool and strong and quite clumsy haha !! terribly afraid of being alone .. she’s my cashew nut !! nnuts family will rock on forever and ever !! stronger than before !! good hockey player who is hungry rite now !! hhahaha .. u wan bread ? i haf !! haha .. btw .. her laugh is very very loud ! ha!

10) Jie xin - xin fu gal with ahem ahem .. always find him during break de !! haha ! outspoken girl who has the courage to do wadeva she wans !! admirable !!

11) Sharmila - forever blur and being the tallest gal .. she’s rumoured to ahem .. haha .. shall not tease u !! she’s always late !! dear girl .. mustn be like dat for impt interviews or whatnot in the future kaez !

12) Laura - auntie lorrie !! who drives a lorry !! haha not funny !! "hip" harmokee who insists she practised til she got blisters !! most demure of us four !! haha .. my walnut !! nuts family will rock on forever and ever ( 3rd time saying liao ahha) .. tall ex-volleyballer who has lost all her strength !! haha .. must train up to beat diana !! (haha create internal rife!! ) hope ur search for uncles after A’s is successful !! hehe ..

13) Bambang - foreign talent who is vertically disadvantaged !! hehe .. very strong with loads and loads of muscles !! thats why his squash so good !! very very smart also .. haha ..

14) Aaron - my elder son !! my chem rep !! awesomely talented in the er hu !! kind and always willing to lend a listening ear !! happily attached to my xi fu .. haha .. i wan grandchildren !! .. i’ve said it for 2 years le ! haha ..

15) Ding jie - my choir mate who is very smart .. but unfortunately loves to boast !! hahaha .. never fails to make me laugh during lessons !! best of luck to u and wans ! hehe ..

16) Hua ming - my second son !! my fellow un member !! he’s the china one ! haha .. loves to act cute (guess where he inherited THAT from ? ) super smart with 2 s-ess ! haha .. he fails terribly as huabe but nontheless, his ye qu is very very good !! and hor .. stop bullying ur very pretty niang can ?

17) Jason - my kor kor and other fellow un member !! he’s north korea !! dunno where he got that idea from .. haha .. always so kind to entertain me with my s language and royal family fantasies !! haha .. very sneaky guy cos he got my da sao’s hse keys !! orh hor !! haha ..

18) Keat loong  - brunei prince !! he’s very very very tall !! loves to look out the window during chem lessons and apparently he’s trying to visualise a benzene ring ?! haha .. his jokes are super funny !!

19) Shafiq - fiqqy fiqqy with the secret girlfren !! haha .. phy droppers united !! pls dun mention bl—y st–ls in front of me can ? sorta throwing-uppish ! hahah .. chinese girls beware cos shafiq loves them so !! haha .. lucky malay girls !

20) Wei kang - very knowlegeable on current affairs and esp political stuff !! very hardworking !! my GP tuition mate too !! very good soccer player too !! haha ..

21) Darren - the one who tore his ligament !! hahah .. kaez shall not be mean .. haha … kind person in general (except that he will return me my organic chem mindmap after nov 17th !! ) talented soccer player with very cool moves !!

22) Wei lun - lunny !! my sisterly love !! never fails to make me laugh .. even though its usually stuff that is actually suaning me .. has loads of my ugly photos and even my laughter in his phone .. dun u dare lose ur phone or else my reputation is seriously gone !! haha !! hope one day u will realli find a girl nice (dumb) enough to like u !! or else wait for dump him lor hahaha !!

23) Jin Rui - very smart guy who never fails to make lame jokes !! haha .. loves to suan ppl then after that then apologise ..bish u ! haha .. happily with ahem hor .. haha ..

24) Zheng chen -  responsible econs rep !! haha .. another big joker who is very smart !! his handwriting is very nice !! haha .. Lord Zheng !

jus some random tots abt each person !!
with love
Princess Ning 
 

i rmbed abt 250 ++ days ago .. i started counting down to the A’s .. ppl online and everywhere else scolded me cos they said it frightened them ..and along the way, ppl have been complaining abt my counting down.. now .. its only 19 days away .. i dun wish to count anymore (but like all of u who know princess ning serene ng xiang ning well, i dun do wad i say) .. i cant guarantee anything .. but i do know that more cryings are to come .. more late nights .. early mornings .. more anxiety .. more confusion .. more concepts .. more formulas .. more memorisations ..

but in 35 days .. i will be a happie girl .. =)

of
shopping
kboxing
painoing
slacking
working
marathon drama serials
movies
sleeping
travelling
visiting my dearie cousins and grandparents and aunties and uncles
cooking
baking
sewing
losing weight
shopping (or did i mention that oredi ? haha )
swimming
chatting
laughing
smiling
to fill to my heart’s content =)

jia you !!

WHHHHHEEEEHHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHHEHEHE !! ( NO LUN !! i’m not wheezing .. thank you .. )

so happie !! .. liberation is sweet !! .. though bit jittery now cos the aftermath is slowly dawning .. NEVERMIND !! .. shall savour the past 3 days first ..

day 1 (wed) 20th Oct 2006 - WHEE !! super high that day .. san shun was totally ignoring me cos she very scared of me hahahahhaha !!!well of cos ..  the phy droppers were all super high !! kaez after the paper (which i so refuse to talk abt) .. me and lun skipped to marina sqaure .. okie .. we didn skip .. i was walking slowly cos quite tired .. then lun walk so fast .. then HE MADE ME WALK 2 CRICLES CAN !! dumb lun .. cant even tell directions .. so i made him walk slowly til we reached xiang gang cha can ting .. quite nice lah the place .. haha .. then we went walk walk abit .. (lun was rather nice to accompany me shopping even without me whining for it  whee ! ) and went candy empire also !! whee !! so many scrumptious goodies !! me getting fat though .. keep binging .. then before 2pm .. we made it to the counter at kbox marina !! WHEE !! so happie …. princess ning was very happie .. she sang alot of songs and contary to wad auntie laura (ur still auntie even though u changed ur spects okie !) says .. me NEVER spoil the microphone hor .. in fact .. me sang so nice that the staff there asked me to sing somemore before leaving .. but sadly .. i had to leave .. cos more shopping !!!! this time had to whine to lun hahahahha .. but sigh sigh sigh .. lun say me no more affinty with shopping le .. cos couldn find much nice stuff after that .. while lun found a nice shirt which the price was very very worth it .. (princess ning is also shopping princess !! heehee ! ) ..

day 2 (phy paper 3 ) - outing with my nutties !! whee ! so happie hahahaha .. went to take neoprints .. then we had alot of fun putting stupid stuff on the 2 photos that we didn wan .. thinking that later when we choose which we wanted to print out .. we jus dun choose these two lah .. of cos ! so we happily cont to play .. where dina (yeah dina .. NOT diana !! hahaha ) got a stick of poo stuck up to her mouth !!! and laura had some auntie shopping stuff and san shun got some weird stuff also .. cant rmb .. so many funny "emoticon-like" stuff to put on the pic .. then then then ………………. RAH !! .. this dumb machine has a separate touchscreen where u select the photos u wan .. and WE MISSED THE SELECTION !!!! cos we were waiting at the deco touchscreen wondering how come cannot choose .. but NVM .. cos took a total of 8 photos .. so onli 2/8 = 1/4 probability that ugly photo will be selected .. so we patiently waited for the prints ..

LO AND BEHOLD !! the selection was such that 4 phots were chosen and both of the ugly ones came out !!! WAHH!!! RAAWH !!! so mean .. sobz .. even got one where onli half my head can be seen .. sigh .. no pretty girl in that pic le .. ehehehehhe .. so anw we walked somemore .. didn realli see alot of stuff .. but it was nice getting together with the nuts !! Nuts rule !! whee !! and of cos .. it wouldn be complete without the usual philosophical talk we have on the train !! with dina of cos .. hahahah .. cos san shun and laurie also knows how much is the vegetables in the market !! wahahhah !! dina must be honoured !! haha ..

side note: cos dina sat in the corner (realli the very very corner’s corner) in the hall during most of the exams .. she say she is the corner stone !! hahahahha .. then she is the black one and we white one !! hahaha .. okie not funny .. lets not digress ..

day 3 (fm paper! - easiest of them all! ) - went to meet pig head (now known as fmy according to him) at lakeside !! literally !! hahahahha .. me been living here for 8 years and counting and have NEVER ( GET THAT - NEVER ) been to lakeside .. hahahah rather nice place though .. yupz .. so friends : i have taken that leap of faith .. cos i believed .. and that belief is enough =) thank you for standing by me always .. love ya all loads .. huggies !! (no more dy comfort ! )

sigh .. so scared of the results .. not asking for much bah .. if luck is with me .. i can repeat my promo results .. sigh ..nvm .. dun think so much le .. the most jus marry rich man lor .. hahah ..

random ramblings : i wan my affinty with shopping back !!! shopping is my one and onli love !!

some more random ramblings : i wanna play my dear piano .. i wanna sleep .. i wanna go shopping .. wan go watch movie .. wan get away from studies .. nvm .. jus perservere !! 41 days til first paper !! jia you princess !!sigh last time princess no need take exam de lor .. jus be pretty can le (like me lor wahhahahahhaah !! getting high again!!! ) …

even more ramblings: i wanna live in denial !! lun bring me to ur hse !! haha .. i dun wanna live in lakeside anymore ..

still got some more ramblings but very tired le ( i slept for 11 hours last nite) .. pig is me !!

signing off

Her Royal Highness Princess Serene Elizabeth Victora Catherine Anne (fmy : its NOT annie ) haha ..

yes u must be wondering.. and a good question at that.. why am i not studying and typing all this ? to gloat that ppl are suffering in the hall and taking the horrid phy paper while i’m slacking here ?? perhaps .. hahah .. okie .. abit .. NO LAH !! .. me not that evil .. i jus wanna "pen" down my tots for the past few days cos i wanna remind myself never to let it happen ever again .. NEVER EVER .. me shall send all those happenings to never ever land to meet peter pan .. ok .. not funny .. nvm .. yan gui zheng zhuan ..

Monday: obviously the most dreaded day cos its both the start of prelims and the only day where i have 3 papers !! get that !! 3 PAPERS !! yao wo de ming arh .. GP paper 1 .. GP paper 2 and econs paper 3 .. well GP paper 1 was alrite .. though i think i could haf done loads better .. nvm .. jus hope for the best .. GP paper 2 was absolutely DISGUSTING … the teacher was giving out the insert and when she placed it on my table .. i saw the headline .. "GLOBALIZATION" .. WAH THANX ARH !! .. hate that topic .. Econs paper 3 .. yes yes .. i did the IRs qn .. and jameson said it was apt since me is the royal flush girl .. hahah … but me not existing restaurant owner .. so still no advantage wad.. well all this while .. the chest pains (shall be referred to as CP from now on) was relatively inexistant ..

Tuesday: chem paper 3 .. sigh .. so many topics to cover .. and thats when CP surfaced like realli realli badly .. during the entire paper .. it was abt 6/10 on the pain scale .. i tot it was quite untolerable at that time but now me scaling it at 6 cos if not the wednesday portion dun haf enough big enough scale .. sigh .. so i went home after not being able to think very well for the paper quite dejectedly .. then after lunch it started to get even worse and i went to sleep for awhile .. after getting up .. i studied for maths for awhile then head started to spin and nausea enveloped me .. so my mum ..who rarely forces me to do anything .. marched me back into bed after some food and additional muscle relaxant pill .. then i woke up .. dinner .. slept again .. so bascially .. i didn study for maths AT ALL !! in case ur wondering .. i slept for a total of 11 hrs for thru afternoon and nite til next morning ..

Wednesday: maths paper 1 nvm lor .. i told myself ..nvm .. jus hope got luck .. then the pain escalated to 11/10 DURING the paper .. thanx arh !! so obviously i couldn concentrate and think .. and to think i slept for 11 hrs the day before .. sigh .. heaven is toying with me .. and then i got quite depressed after the paper ended and the pain was so bad then i couldn realli walk properly .. thanx to diana dear for carrying my stuff .. laura dear for holding me .. qinfang dear for letting me sleep on her shoulder and of cos sarah dear for accompanying me home .. and jieying dear who gave me tissue after i teared abit in the train and everyone else who was in the train and wished me well and to take care .. sigh .. so i got home .. had lunch .. took medicine .. slept at 2 .. woke at 7 .. took dinner .. took medicine .. tossed abt in bed .. feel asleep ard 9 .. then semi- woke during the wee hours several times to msg a certain someone .. yes! U !! pig head .. haha .. finally woke at 7 .. took breakfast took medicine .. sigh .. i slept a total of 15 hours .. feel like rip van winkle now .. haha .. BUT !! ELATION : pain has subsided considerably .. so much that i can jus ignore it !! WHEE !! WOOHOO !! .. serene ng is so happie that she will treat everyone who reads til this part some ice cream from tom and jerry’s .. (hahaha .. as quoted from qinfang) .. no lah .. rubbish .. why would i part with my shopping fund to feed ur hunger for ice cream ? haha ..

anw here’s the moral of the story .. NEVER SLEEP AFTER MEALS .. abit no link BUT ITS TRUE .. cos notice from the above that i kept eating (food then medicine cos the medicine must be taken after food) and then when i got up .. i had diarrhoea .. meaning a total of 3 times during these 3 days .. indigestion bah .. yupz .. so i never wanna repeat this sleep pain and diarrhoea routine EVER .. heeehee .. me is very happie now .. hahha .. heheh .. haha .. WOOHOO !! .. bye bye CP .. =)

p.s. to CP: dun ever come back kaez .. thanx 

well its been very long since i last wrote an entry .. jus wanted to type a quick one before prelims start .. its coming in 5 days and i’m not prepared as i tot i would be at this stage .. but i can say that wad me could have done .. me could have done almost all le .. studying almost 60% of a day with no television .. no computer (except music) .. no piano .. no stoning .. i’m tried my all i could .. perhaps i’m jus restricted by my brain capacity .. i need potential growth .. cos actual growth has oredi been maxed .. update on health : been to mount e 6 times so far .. seen 3 diff specialists and they cant cure my unidentifiable chest pains .. the pains bother me every single day .. i’ve seriously had enough .. but once again .. nothing i can do .. so i’ll ignore u .. u poo poo pain .. (god .. i’m 17 and i’m talking like this ?!)  the results are beyond my control .. i will do wad i can .. maybe my expectations are too high .. but nvm .. wads the point of thinking of it now .. yupz .. so study and do wad i can .. haha i’m so dumb (oops) .. i’m jus trying to reassure myself ..

anw .. i’m thankful for everyone who’ve been beside me all this while .. all the health probs .. the cryings over studies .. u guys know who u are .. and me love ual to bits .. yupz .. thank you .. thank you all .. *huggies* (dry comfort !! god .. i’m crazy)